是出于不甘寂寞还是可怜，我真的不懂。事情就是这么奇怪。。。也许我天生缺乏观察力，洞悉不到身边对我不利的东西，结果做了一大堆却又得不到回报，自己却觉得不值得，哈哈哈，是我自己的错，自己笨。。。。解释到底是为了不让你继续误会我，还是我纯粹为了我面子着想呢？有时候，我真的很矛盾，不懂自己在干嘛。。看见了一大堆的那些东西后，我对号入座了，我最初以为那个人是我，阿，好傻啊。。。我以为你说这我是个不负责任的人，很多东西都不敢和我说。 那我现在觉得我们已经没有需要见面的机会了，因为你有所属了，所有我觉得会是问题的问题，觉得我需要解释的东西都会因为他的出现，我的责任，我的工作也完了，伤心？我也不懂了，感觉的确是酸的，最少，我觉得我释怀了压力，终于不用那么不清不楚。朋友的界限在那里，而你想要我能做到的有多少，这些不再重要，最重要的是，这些时间来，我所做的，都是无谓的，哈哈哈哈哈。是时候我觉得我应该放更多时间管自己，管自己到底要怎么对自己比较好。我告诉了自己，这是我对自己保证，这是我最后一次对你心软去管你，去理你，我不要再受伤了，你将来会怎样，我都不可能保持现在这份对你的关心，我向自己保证了这一点，也许下一次我们见面是个崭新不同的感觉，同情可怜都是出于朋友关心。。是我心中朋友的定义，而不是你心中朋友的定义。
亲爱的彬彬，我ｓｈａｒｅ你也看，我不ｓｈａｒｅ你也偷看的啦，看了后不需要想多多，没事发生在我身上，我很健康，我很开心，哈哈哈哈，你别想多多，看过就算，有时候给你问到我怎么不告诉你，我其实都没东西好说。。。ＬＯＬ
Sunday, 19 February 2012
Sunday, 12 February 2012
伟康=伟康
自信不等于没有自知之明，这个道理我是深深知道，也刚刚体会到。在一些事情上面，无论你努力十年，二十年，东西都不会改变，那个容器是一百克，就只是能装一百克。所以我是有自知之明，当你说了让你很失望，往后有什么事，都不敢跟我聊了，其实我好像都预知了结果，都知道会怎样一回事，没有惊奇，没有意外，我是接受的，因为我知道，这个只是时间上的问题，难道说等你有了男朋友过后我还是这样粘你，这样关心，知道你一切吗？现在的我很庆幸，我乃能透过别人知道你的事，我开心我还能默默地关心你这位朋友。
看着自己身边的一个一个红颜知己离我而去，到底真的是我想要拥有太多吗？可是我更相信的是我自己拿来的，也许就如他所说的，这都是我上辈子犯的错，这辈子还。随便啦，什么都好，总之，就是时候改变自己了。我迷信？我倒不觉得迷信是个不好的东西。那天在天后宫求的签我乃收着在我钱包里面，以便无时提醒我自己，我要正面，对于有些我平时会犯错的事情，我要更加谨慎，尤其是爱这个东西。签说明了我是个可以为了爱而做改变，可是时常忽略了爱自己，要懂得爱自己才会明白怎样去爱别人，所以从今天起，伟康告诉了自己，我要更加爱自己，更爱那些爱我的人。。。伟康要做回开开心心的伟康，烦恼往脑后抛。
爱情真的那么不可缺乏吗？其实每个人心中所以期待爱情，不是父母给与不够的爱，只是我们都厌倦了这种无论你怎么再错，怎么再坏，还是有爱着我们的父母。爱情对于我们来说，是个新鲜感，也许还有挑战。对我来说，爱情是一门经验，学问，需要时间来吸取更多，懂更多，了解更多，小时，很期待爱情，期待中学留下一段回忆，人生的第一个十年那种单纯的爱。可惜，我太被父母爱戴了，在家的一棵小幼苗又怎么能应付这前所未有的东西呢？结果还是失败了。到了大学，人长大了，觉得时间长的是，宁可不要轰轰烈烈，细水长流就好，机会来了，圣诞节为尔留下，谁知，却扑个空。跌跌撞撞之下，终于懂得，还是父母给的爱最好。
看着自己身边的一个一个红颜知己离我而去，到底真的是我想要拥有太多吗？可是我更相信的是我自己拿来的，也许就如他所说的，这都是我上辈子犯的错，这辈子还。随便啦，什么都好，总之，就是时候改变自己了。我迷信？我倒不觉得迷信是个不好的东西。那天在天后宫求的签我乃收着在我钱包里面，以便无时提醒我自己，我要正面，对于有些我平时会犯错的事情，我要更加谨慎，尤其是爱这个东西。签说明了我是个可以为了爱而做改变，可是时常忽略了爱自己，要懂得爱自己才会明白怎样去爱别人，所以从今天起，伟康告诉了自己，我要更加爱自己，更爱那些爱我的人。。。伟康要做回开开心心的伟康，烦恼往脑后抛。
爱情真的那么不可缺乏吗？其实每个人心中所以期待爱情，不是父母给与不够的爱，只是我们都厌倦了这种无论你怎么再错，怎么再坏，还是有爱着我们的父母。爱情对于我们来说，是个新鲜感，也许还有挑战。对我来说，爱情是一门经验，学问，需要时间来吸取更多，懂更多，了解更多，小时，很期待爱情，期待中学留下一段回忆，人生的第一个十年那种单纯的爱。可惜，我太被父母爱戴了，在家的一棵小幼苗又怎么能应付这前所未有的东西呢？结果还是失败了。到了大学，人长大了，觉得时间长的是，宁可不要轰轰烈烈，细水长流就好，机会来了，圣诞节为尔留下，谁知，却扑个空。跌跌撞撞之下，终于懂得，还是父母给的爱最好。
Tuesday, 27 December 2011
waited for so long
finally, today is the day that waited for so long, perhaps not too long also, LOL. when i heard that "yes, tomolo I'm home" i felt that, oh yes, actually i also do miss my home, somehow, i home with no homedish to eat =( my mom still at kl, oh dear... will my dad cook something hao liao for me eat for this entire pre chinese new year? who knows? hahahaha!
oh yea today went for ipoh jusco again... 2 movies in 3 weeks time... hahahaha, actually i dont have any special interest towards this movie, for me, any activities with friends, i enjoyed most which the time together with friends beside really understanding the movie, hahahaha. After that we went for pool and snooker, i still find myself it is an entertainment more than a sport, it just probably i too fever on badminton this semester... lol
those friend who really shared your feeling they dont mean to let u selfish and forgot to appreciate. friends are always there to share in case for oneself to make a correct decision. friend oweys there to make sure that you make a correct decision whenever before it is too late. plz dont fear that you wanna share with your friend. oweys know that "sharing is caring". whenever u faced problem and it happened, and it had no any solution for regret only let your friend to know, insteadly they just can shared the pityness and it look so helpless.... however, once u said that go away, i dont need your help, so sorry friend this time i would not give up that easy because i knew that once i let u off, u will get hurt again...
Thursday, 22 December 2011
七个礼拜 short sem 告一段落
这七个礼拜给我的惊喜与生活，对我来说，蛮精彩了，不懂是否因为短学期，既然还能 "study hard, play hard". 友情方面，这个学期也算打破了上个学期的０朋友记录，这个学期不得不认识新朋友，不然“牙塞门” 就吃大便了 >.< 亲情一切还好，印象最深刻的就是哥哥朋友的那支 bacardi，哈哈哈，原来他的朋友喝了酒是那么的可爱。 ^^ 爱情方面，哈哈哈，还以为这个圣诞有座落，谁知道还是一个人，回家去了，还是家最好，有家人，有朋友。 很多东西似乎她都误会我，那就算吧，当我想解释的时候，你拒绝，那我只好残忍一次，是你不义，那我也不必仁慈了吧。
冬至有吃汤圆么？哈哈哈，这个当然有，哈哈哈哈。因为男人都是懒惰的，本想semua kosong，全白的，朋友却找来了色素，让我们的汤圆不需素颜进我们的肚子。红白青，哈哈哈哈！裸上半身的那位是我朋友，阿斌，还是单身哦，会亲手做汤圆的男生不用我说，肯定是个好男人吧。（要认识记得找我哦）
在我们身边，很多事情都不需要复杂化，虽然已经很严重，人生还是得乐观积极面对。很多时候事情都不需要那么多顾虑，想法，只要见一步走一步就好了。想太多只会让自己更烦。朋友，加油，我永远都会在你身边，我是不会放弃你的 =） 我希望你不会因为一时的钻牛角尖而导致我失去了你哦，我永远爱你
Wednesday, 30 November 2011
why oweys me? not balloteli but Wai Hong
what happened to myself..? today my blog updated with onli myself. why do myself is such a person in which oweys put the benefit of myself at last in some my weak expect.or this is what called human shall be humble no matter in what section? or human should learn through every section and try to be more and more selfish? i really dunno and i am blurred. I can easily rather to make an ignore, make a rejection or simply don't make any respond towards that, then i will be save right now. What all about tired? Did i am the one who made you tired? i really don't know. I felt more tired insteadly i don't know what you want and what you need. The deep emotion that i would like to express, i dint show up on my face but choose to blogging and expressed it here. =( i really don't understand what difficulties that u faced. i know that when want to blame, it is hard to say who did right and who did wrong. In fact, i really dunno how to face you, but this time, i told myself, yea, we still can be friend, and you requested this, Better than friend, I hope i really could do that cause till now, i only success to make my path that precious all friend, Good or best friend, i still will try harder and harder perhaps.....
Sunday, 27 November 2011
the so self protective me
again, while the time i really wanna update my blog, it means that, there are heavy feeling that i duno how to express, but i hope person that i point to, understand what really i would like to mean.
honestly deep from my heart, i am those in which too love myself and high self protective, in which a negative way of saying, my life, i live with my own only. I will only put effort to love those people, which are those that they told me, i am available but once they tell me, sorry, we are impossible, then i shall stop any effort that shows that i love you. it is just because i too love myself already, i cant let myself bare to love someone for nothing, waiting ages for nothing, all effort for nothing... I scared all my efforts turn into zero, negative when i just doing or paying effort in one side, i very very fear that...
I wont easily threat a person too good, i think you shall know it. I first ever felt some1 who so cared me at first, really, it was my first time. You are so so angry on why i reply on slow, and i know, you are just care about me... I not those style, stay the same status while found people threat me good, insteadly i will threat back the people 10x greater than what he/she did on me. i hope all this nt my thought but the real factual that happened. I not sure why on your reject, if all above all just my thought, then i can understand why.
I just hope that you know, now, current me, is just such that minded full of you in single minute of me, if u hardly, seriously remain the same answer, i would let myself took up a long period to forget, to accept. if you think that you want to test me, then i shall fail the test. cause i cant take up my effort to convince myself to continue love someone that not love me.
honestly deep from my heart, i am those in which too love myself and high self protective, in which a negative way of saying, my life, i live with my own only. I will only put effort to love those people, which are those that they told me, i am available but once they tell me, sorry, we are impossible, then i shall stop any effort that shows that i love you. it is just because i too love myself already, i cant let myself bare to love someone for nothing, waiting ages for nothing, all effort for nothing... I scared all my efforts turn into zero, negative when i just doing or paying effort in one side, i very very fear that...
I wont easily threat a person too good, i think you shall know it. I first ever felt some1 who so cared me at first, really, it was my first time. You are so so angry on why i reply on slow, and i know, you are just care about me... I not those style, stay the same status while found people threat me good, insteadly i will threat back the people 10x greater than what he/she did on me. i hope all this nt my thought but the real factual that happened. I not sure why on your reject, if all above all just my thought, then i can understand why.
I just hope that you know, now, current me, is just such that minded full of you in single minute of me, if u hardly, seriously remain the same answer, i would let myself took up a long period to forget, to accept. if you think that you want to test me, then i shall fail the test. cause i cant take up my effort to convince myself to continue love someone that not love me.
if you really had that feeling, please tell.
Thursday, 24 November 2011
自己
我都会尽量不要让自己去写部落格，感觉如果我写，肯定又是心里已经沉不住了。
hmmm, this short sem comes to almost an end. Now already end of week 6 already. later 3pm will follow mr.ho car and down kl AGAIN. LOL, oweys i been asked where my hometown and why oweys go kl. lol, kl can consider at my 2nd place taht i can stayed rather than my hometown and kampar. hmmm, after u get know more friends, u might think more wisely and think more positive. it's true. lol, this sem get knows some friends. overall, all very friendly and 2 presentation done hmmm, i think not bad ba! hopefully!
relationship, this word always do bother me so much so much. Last time, i did complained why i am not the 1 being love first, y always i am the one who love people first. Now, finally there was a people that who love and care me more at first. Hmm, i was just... actually everything that before showed that too fast for us. Not the pace that i can accepted. however, i dint reject. Was that i rather i am the one who get hurt then to let other ppl to get hurt? how stupid i am.... when suddenly i am the 1 become aggressive and the girl like playing "fishing game", i feel so... lol, i oso duno how to describe that feel. it is like now i doing thing and the girl "wan bother dun wan bother", LOLZ! i hate this kind of feel, i started to be more aggressive is just because i hope there was really an answer the showed whether that we are really possible, i dont want a bait release and giving game, it's just make me suffer...
hmmm, this short sem comes to almost an end. Now already end of week 6 already. later 3pm will follow mr.ho car and down kl AGAIN. LOL, oweys i been asked where my hometown and why oweys go kl. lol, kl can consider at my 2nd place taht i can stayed rather than my hometown and kampar. hmmm, after u get know more friends, u might think more wisely and think more positive. it's true. lol, this sem get knows some friends. overall, all very friendly and 2 presentation done hmmm, i think not bad ba! hopefully!
relationship, this word always do bother me so much so much. Last time, i did complained why i am not the 1 being love first, y always i am the one who love people first. Now, finally there was a people that who love and care me more at first. Hmm, i was just... actually everything that before showed that too fast for us. Not the pace that i can accepted. however, i dint reject. Was that i rather i am the one who get hurt then to let other ppl to get hurt? how stupid i am.... when suddenly i am the 1 become aggressive and the girl like playing "fishing game", i feel so... lol, i oso duno how to describe that feel. it is like now i doing thing and the girl "wan bother dun wan bother", LOLZ! i hate this kind of feel, i started to be more aggressive is just because i hope there was really an answer the showed whether that we are really possible, i dont want a bait release and giving game, it's just make me suffer...
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