又是分离的时刻，真得很不舍得。感触当不上，可是真的有少许的舍不得。毕竟我们大家真的在这一年间分享了不少的欢乐，争吵与悲伤。本想昨晚就把这篇东西给搞定了，谁知道-.- 眼睛一关，就是4点了，瓦老=.=
其实我真的不会为离别而流泪的，至少我这次真的还没有。type chinese kinda slow and hemm, dunno y, my blog is just so laggy lar, so i plan to type back english. erm.... actually i do miss all of tz9 tenants( must to be say so if not then sure kena bomb d,haha)
the nite b4 chemistry exam, there is just so many feelings inside my heart, inside my brain, no matter how hard i study, how hard i eat the notesssss, it doesnt sense to go inside my brainn @.@ OMG! actually throughout this year, there are few persons that i would like to special thanks, special memorable....
1st of all, u all sure noe(dun jealous lar) for sure that person would be Mun Mun, oh yea!!! actually the time i been with him closely just short for around this sem? why he is just so memorable for me? for me, mun mun is just a guy such caring, do thing patiently, kind, lol(macam praise idol), but seriously, he does.... most important, Mun Mun is the one who really do give me up power to study. His effort of getting 4.0 this sem,
hi enthuasisms is just so strong, he makes me feel like, y he can do so, y i cant?!?although what you study not equal to what result you get, but no matter the result u get is good or bad or even moderate, at least you tried (omg, what did i say? -.-) no matter how, this sem 3 was too great in which i do enjoy a lot of fun time, study time with mun mun. what i had now except from my parents, from myself, then it's contribution of mun mun =D
oh yea, 2nd person would be???? haha, it's chia. hemm, actually i not sure why he could stand the 2nd place inside my heart, but just he did. with just frequently of having dinner together, we become closer and closer. instead, we also FREQUENTLY argue something called ARGUMENTSSS. oh yea, he asked, would 'argue more more then love u more moreour friendship become worser and worser due to we always ARGUE? then i answer heartly sweetly which " argue more more, love u more more" hahahahahaha. indeed, although we are from same hometown, but we are onli get closed of UTAR, highlighted SEM 3 somemore, LOOOL!!!!
the third person would be u la, i noe u kinda disappointed y ur name never appeared since so long ago. haha. The 1 drove toyota vios geh leh, haha. it's a supervb special event bring us to be kinda friendly. Somemore, our medium is chia. I remember for 1st time after sky q spagetti nite, Chia call you at 10+pm ady, i tot u slept, so not dare kacau u but chia say get a try. Chia:Hello, YB ar, we at maxbreak play snooker o, you wan join?
YB:ok, now i come
lol. tat answer was just stunned me cause i still unbelievable in which you could agree so simply. haha, since that we become kaki maxbreak, 1 week 5 days, hahaha, 风雨不改.besides, haha, also special thx to u la, oweys give me such good threatment, fetch me here and then fetch me there, so touch nehhh, ahahahahahaha.
i duno how to praise you ler, coz we kind a lot of unsolved argument O.O
4th for sure is kai chie la, actually we doesnt had many in contact, but just his lifestyle his mind was just something impressed me. his life is just simple with these words, 真的阿？有啊？哇！ignore. 他的人生就是这么的简单，让我不时觉得，人生如果能像他那样，什么都简简单单的真好，就不会有争吵，有烦恼，至少他没有读书以外的烦恼吧。有人认为，他这样其实是幼稚长不大，我却觉得，已经大学了，能做到这样，真得很不错了。。。
5th 是 。。。。。。你想到拍照想到谁？？？？weii ping,他至少让我看透了，在你掌握digital 前，dslr不是你能mange的东西，他也教会了我不少拍照的技术。最重要，在我跌倒的时候，是他载我去看医生，真得很sweet,哈哈~还要是圣诞节列...
目前所在kl central mcd,type到有点累了，想休息下，上klia继续写。。。。
待续。。。
Saturday 30 April 2011
Wednesday 27 April 2011
"没事情"发生
今天早考完，回到家才中午，够力热哦。My friend asked, go write your blog eh, i am your follower, i wan read your blog!!! LOL, once i saw that on msn, i wan to laugh out =.= u tot write bloYog like write story meh, must something happened on the particular day i just can write out something right, haha, so cute la u 凯“奇”. indeed actually i also hope a single day with no anything happen, LOL, but? lol, sounds impossible lor, must let him say me day day emo d, hahahahahaha.
duno y le, i oweys can detect something bad happen, i can feel it will happen but i just unwilling to accept the fact that it will happen, it like very hemm, like 矛盾？明知道事实却不想接受事实。。。我好像真得很矛盾哦。。。
write ady so many, like still yet get into main point? should start this story from where? actually since i saw his blog is 1st posted up on facebook, i ady can guess out, tonite might no dinner ady, something sure will happen, who knows, when i message ask her, indeed she really say so =.= omg, i really so kuat, like that oso can guess dao, LOL(praising myself indeed, haha) if she just told me that she dont wan to join the dinner onli, that was acceptable. hemm, but she refuse more that than, she said, even the gathering of our group also dont wan to join, LOOOL! is that a joke? You even could ask me, how if others dun go y they can, how i will look towards them? I very funny lo, this kind of questin, u tot u throw it to me then i will think that,ya hor, y i wan scold u o? They had their own whatever valid/ rubbish reason i still duno yet, but 1 thing that i can sure from u that is that you had a rubbish reason for me, which 0% of convincing me, ok, u nid not to come. as u said u tired wan a sleep on the day exam ended, that still acceptable, but is just becoz of escaping a guy, do youself logically think that is this a valid reason, gosh = =
again, u r allowed to use ur own way, own style to solve your problem, but please dont put onli your perception to solve a problem, it must also based on logical right? If you seriously hope a problem could be solved perfectly please dont always say dun care la, ppl wan how think then how think la, thats not the way, you know that. and you said, what he said i will remember inside my heart. then i ask u, u r purposely dont understand the real mean inside his words or just simply really dont understand the real fact message that he want to bring on? so now ends up wit what? the gathering seems to be fail now, so you HAPPY? eastlakers are alot, if seriously the function really goes on, you think without him the function will GOES ON AS NORMAL? YOU said that what all these not suppose he explain but i am the one explain
1.is it weather he explain u will listen
2.don't you think what i say all are fact?
3.you say so what u trying to escape/denied?fact???
duno y le, i oweys can detect something bad happen, i can feel it will happen but i just unwilling to accept the fact that it will happen, it like very hemm, like 矛盾？明知道事实却不想接受事实。。。我好像真得很矛盾哦。。。
write ady so many, like still yet get into main point? should start this story from where? actually since i saw his blog is 1st posted up on facebook, i ady can guess out, tonite might no dinner ady, something sure will happen, who knows, when i message ask her, indeed she really say so =.= omg, i really so kuat, like that oso can guess dao, LOL(praising myself indeed, haha) if she just told me that she dont wan to join the dinner onli, that was acceptable. hemm, but she refuse more that than, she said, even the gathering of our group also dont wan to join, LOOOL! is that a joke? You even could ask me, how if others dun go y they can, how i will look towards them? I very funny lo, this kind of questin, u tot u throw it to me then i will think that,ya hor, y i wan scold u o? They had their own whatever valid/ rubbish reason i still duno yet, but 1 thing that i can sure from u that is that you had a rubbish reason for me, which 0% of convincing me, ok, u nid not to come. as u said u tired wan a sleep on the day exam ended, that still acceptable, but is just becoz of escaping a guy, do youself logically think that is this a valid reason, gosh = =
again, u r allowed to use ur own way, own style to solve your problem, but please dont put onli your perception to solve a problem, it must also based on logical right? If you seriously hope a problem could be solved perfectly please dont always say dun care la, ppl wan how think then how think la, thats not the way, you know that. and you said, what he said i will remember inside my heart. then i ask u, u r purposely dont understand the real mean inside his words or just simply really dont understand the real fact message that he want to bring on? so now ends up wit what? the gathering seems to be fail now, so you HAPPY? eastlakers are alot, if seriously the function really goes on, you think without him the function will GOES ON AS NORMAL? YOU said that what all these not suppose he explain but i am the one explain
1.is it weather he explain u will listen
2.don't you think what i say all are fact?
3.you say so what u trying to escape/denied?fact???
lol, 8 packs of instand noodles, how could i ends them up by this saturday? unless very lunch and dinner
i also eat it, omg, like that sure sienz die me, but i really dun wan together move it to my new living
place lar ><
这个ｓｅｍ要结束了，搬家姑且开心，可是ｓｔａｒｔ ｎｅｘｔ ｔｉｍｅ ｃｏｕｌｄｎｔ ｂｅ ｙｏｕｒ ｎｅｉｇｈｂｏｕｒ ａｎｙｍｏｒｅ， 酸 ～．～ ｉ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｎｏ ｇｕｔｓ， ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ ｉ ａｄｙ ｐｌａｎ ｎｏｔ ｔｏ ｇｉｖｅ ｏｕｔ ｔｈｅ ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ ａｎｄ ｊｕｓｔ ｌｅｔ ｉｔ ｅａｔ ｄｕｓｔ ｔｈｅｒｅ ｂａ．．．
Tuesday 26 April 2011
爱与不爱，一线之间
今天在图书馆看到你，眼神好尴尬哦，＞＜ 都不懂要为你开心，还是为你感到伤心列， 真的这个考试看得出为你带来的压力好到哦，瘦了很多很多很多很多哦〉 >.< 蛮心疼地说～
my teacher had quote this for me b4, 天才与蠢才一线之间而已，when you study hard, indeed you had onli 2 results, 1 is u will be genius, but when u use like hemm, some overpush method, then u will become the silly 1 instead of the genius 1, haha. Hemm.... it's same when come to love? love and doesnt love it's just a step away onli... I noe that we could be onli friends, oh yea, that will be something not bad too. But could you just please let me selfish enough to own more than this? T.T when i plan to make some effort try to make you touch, but on the same time, i had no talent, no skill, doesnt own any ability to make you feel touch to like me >< my God, i am a loser indeed, as said, belum lawan sudah mengaku kalah. LOL! i just fear a confession doesnt make the thing better instead worst the thing onli... i fear to gain but more fear to lose
actually i deeply affected by my 1 virgie friend, she said.有时候宁可保持现在的友谊，也不想更长远的发展．it's like when become a couple, there will be many worries many question there, it might brings more problem than love. It's another level of relationship. last time i do denied this fact in my dictionary, but since the phenomena is explaining, actually friends really indeed better than a soulmate...
其实我曾想，难道狮子座的我，真的不能与处女座的女生做情侣吗？really no exception case for me o? it's feel like if i have a chance in future, i hope really could break the unbreakable mitos lar >< sienz. haha, but still, had no virgie target yet, haha LMAO
my teacher had quote this for me b4, 天才与蠢才一线之间而已，when you study hard, indeed you had onli 2 results, 1 is u will be genius, but when u use like hemm, some overpush method, then u will become the silly 1 instead of the genius 1, haha. Hemm.... it's same when come to love? love and doesnt love it's just a step away onli... I noe that we could be onli friends, oh yea, that will be something not bad too. But could you just please let me selfish enough to own more than this? T.T when i plan to make some effort try to make you touch, but on the same time, i had no talent, no skill, doesnt own any ability to make you feel touch to like me >< my God, i am a loser indeed, as said, belum lawan sudah mengaku kalah. LOL! i just fear a confession doesnt make the thing better instead worst the thing onli... i fear to gain but more fear to lose
actually i deeply affected by my 1 virgie friend, she said.有时候宁可保持现在的友谊，也不想更长远的发展．it's like when become a couple, there will be many worries many question there, it might brings more problem than love. It's another level of relationship. last time i do denied this fact in my dictionary, but since the phenomena is explaining, actually friends really indeed better than a soulmate...
其实我曾想，难道狮子座的我，真的不能与处女座的女生做情侣吗？really no exception case for me o? it's feel like if i have a chance in future, i hope really could break the unbreakable mitos lar >< sienz. haha, but still, had no virgie target yet, haha LMAO
Monday 25 April 2011
只是一场梦？
夜晚总来的寂寞，来的平静，思想，也是杂乱的。想深一层，我到底对于爱情，是什么观念。我真的不是很相信星座的人，可是准到非得相信 >.<对于18号生日的我，真的是个爱情随波逐流的吗？当这个被吹捧，就喜欢这个，到换了季节，又喜欢另一个吗?又或者说，其实我现在还不是很想要，因为毕竟，现在的我总觉得，我还没有必要吧？哈哈，这就是我常说的，人性的犯贱，给你的时候不要，没有的时候吵要。。。LOL
关于如果是被朋友吹捧，我其实真的蛮被说中的咯 sienz >< 可是这却不能说我用情不专，我可是很专一地说（没有夸大><) girls will oweys ask this, he doesnt love me, he just had a like on me, so i oweys do answer them, yea, this moment i am sorry couldnt promise i love you but i will do my best to love you =D haha
Hemm, when you like a girl, it is a story, but when the girl doesnt like you,that'll be another story >< omg, hemm.... recently she just shows kinda cold reaction towards me le >< is this a sign that she wan to let me know to let her off.... the present that i bought for her still inside my room, do a confession needed? or just put and left the present to be frozen??? hmmm.... another big question big decision for me ><
a kinda funny situation that during my exam? haha, i accidently same venue of exam hall wif my "qing di" LOL,when saw him i also duno wan to greet him or angry him, haha, actually, i just duno how to respond to him onli la ^_^ LMAO
test almost ended, many things nid to ends up and there will b a 分离 soon, hmmm, tz9 tenants who will leave kampar and continue your kl life, gambateh ya, i will miss u all ya! T.T
i wan to swap house ler, but seriously really many thing inside my room , how to move leh?
关于如果是被朋友吹捧，我其实真的蛮被说中的咯 sienz >< 可是这却不能说我用情不专，我可是很专一地说（没有夸大><) girls will oweys ask this, he doesnt love me, he just had a like on me, so i oweys do answer them, yea, this moment i am sorry couldnt promise i love you but i will do my best to love you =D haha
Hemm, when you like a girl, it is a story, but when the girl doesnt like you,that'll be another story >< omg, hemm.... recently she just shows kinda cold reaction towards me le >< is this a sign that she wan to let me know to let her off.... the present that i bought for her still inside my room, do a confession needed? or just put and left the present to be frozen??? hmmm.... another big question big decision for me ><
a kinda funny situation that during my exam? haha, i accidently same venue of exam hall wif my "qing di" LOL,when saw him i also duno wan to greet him or angry him, haha, actually, i just duno how to respond to him onli la ^_^ LMAO
test almost ended, many things nid to ends up and there will b a 分离 soon, hmmm, tz9 tenants who will leave kampar and continue your kl life, gambateh ya, i will miss u all ya! T.T
i wan to swap house ler, but seriously really many thing inside my room , how to move leh?
Friday 22 April 2011
好复杂。。
昨晚，是我这个星期以来的第一次失眠。我非常好奇自己了，一个她也不足让我失眠，怎么你却这么有能力，能让我为了你的事而失眠呢？昨晚看到你的讯息，跟他一起去湖边吹风，突然觉得，怎么自己好像没被叫到的？＞．＜ ｏｍｇ，失去地位了。。。ｈｅｍｍ，到底事实真的是这样？还是我只是想太多了。还有，其实昨晚我真的有少少不爽啦，我讲你又讲，我很想喊，如果你要讲，我给你讲，我不讲！！！可是还是算了，讲出来对事情没有帮助。其实你想努力追她，我并没有阻止，只是不要再向我征询意见了可以吗？对我来说是一种折磨，是一种痛苦来的，我并没有阻止你得到你的幸福，可是不要再次要我断送我的友谊可以吗？谢谢你。对我来讲这样真的很残忍。。。
考试已经进入倒数期，星期六，星期日，and then 星期一就是考试了。哎哟，真的像个骆驼那样，乃没有把感情问题处理好，哈哈，向往一样，把它丢到考试后才解决吧.虽然说会影响读书的心情，可是哈哈，还是 硬硬把note给吃进脑袋里吧。很出乎预料之外，我的physics 既然拿到34分，omg，真的是3个sem以来最高分的一次了。^^ 看到你在窗边晒着衣物的时候很想大喊，喂，小心点阿，不要跌倒哦，可是怕你听了后才真正跌下来就不好了，所以最后还是打消了那个念头，ＬＯＬ
我得快点收拾我的心情，快点进入ｆｕｌｌｙ读书ｍｏｏｄ了，不然真的我的梦想３．０会破灭。。。暂时，我可以把爱你的心，暂时藏起来，等考完试才拿出来给你看？哈哈，真的心底话很多，却不懂要怎么说，怎么表达，所以还是不写了 ^^
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the following is just for the 1 who understand what i wrote
i dint means that you like him is a wrong la, but plz, dun lie urself that u even dun have an admire in your heart, if you really doesnt have any, then we..... lol, i oso lazy to repeat again, it might be oso might not that the prob between us is becoz present of he? lolz, just, u like this cheat ur fren is totally a hurt for me....
facebook ady aint no more a medium for me to said out what hidden inside my heart, my tought my mind my thinking, once say out there, it would be like the whole world will noe what r u saying about, blog recently had become a thing that i used to confess out what exploded inside my mind!
考试已经进入倒数期，星期六，星期日，and then 星期一就是考试了。哎哟，真的像个骆驼那样，乃没有把感情问题处理好，哈哈，向往一样，把它丢到考试后才解决吧.虽然说会影响读书的心情，可是哈哈，还是 硬硬把note给吃进脑袋里吧。很出乎预料之外，我的physics 既然拿到34分，omg，真的是3个sem以来最高分的一次了。^^ 看到你在窗边晒着衣物的时候很想大喊，喂，小心点阿，不要跌倒哦，可是怕你听了后才真正跌下来就不好了，所以最后还是打消了那个念头，ＬＯＬ
我得快点收拾我的心情，快点进入ｆｕｌｌｙ读书ｍｏｏｄ了，不然真的我的梦想３．０会破灭。。。暂时，我可以把爱你的心，暂时藏起来，等考完试才拿出来给你看？哈哈，真的心底话很多，却不懂要怎么说，怎么表达，所以还是不写了 ^^
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the following is just for the 1 who understand what i wrote
i dint means that you like him is a wrong la, but plz, dun lie urself that u even dun have an admire in your heart, if you really doesnt have any, then we..... lol, i oso lazy to repeat again, it might be oso might not that the prob between us is becoz present of he? lolz, just, u like this cheat ur fren is totally a hurt for me....
facebook ady aint no more a medium for me to said out what hidden inside my heart, my tought my mind my thinking, once say out there, it would be like the whole world will noe what r u saying about, blog recently had become a thing that i used to confess out what exploded inside my mind!
Tuesday 19 April 2011
*~逃避的假期~*Part II~*
还以为逃回家就是一件好事，以为真的能就逃避一切的现实，事实，原来，amboi,rupanya "memperbohongkan" sendiri saja =.= sienz, still yet can focus on study, just flip over few pages of the bio chapter 3 and physic nuclear physics part saja =.= ends up do what at tapah? ._. keep facebook facebook on phone lor >< keep see what thing updated lo, especially? T.T really pitty lo like this. really affect my study mood deep deep >< so i decided to do it 99 ady >< decided to go for ipoh, hiak hiak, to??? shhh, better keep it as a secret first, so that it will be more suprised, now 天时 地理 仁和 都齐了 欠的就是东风而已 what i nid just a chance, so when shall it be? before exam? after exam? LOL, y must choose this kind period of time wor >< like this very sienz de noh, wan focus cannot, dun wan focus also cannot, duno what shall i do just the best way to solve this problem. Doing nothing like will “辜负” their 期望， if do till too over will like lost my style wor, but nvm la, haha,human do oweys have some exception case =D hope that i oso get a exception chance too? LOLs!
Hemm, this trip back tapah couldnt say not worth, i saw my grandma really get weaker and weaker indeed. while i reached, she at the kitchen, no matter how i phone the phone, also she dint heard it >< so no choice ran to back door and call her. she roughly could saw a ppl there but she just cant recognise who is that. her moving pace, her action, hemm, everything seems slow..... wa, 心疼死我了 >...< 最搞笑的是，晚餐菜明明很多，还是要我出去打包，不要给我吃！坏 >.< 还看着婆婆吃了两碗饭，好大吃＞．＜
Sunday 17 April 2011
扯
walao，真的好像在看戏那样，演变到那么扯得？ >< 既然=。= omg 变到好够力夸张去。现在这样，怎么感觉好像连朋友也回不去了，只有两个选择，一就是要，二就是不要 O.o 可以有第三个选择吗 @.@ 我这次真的够够力晕去，粹！ @.@!!
邱/丘同学既然赠我这句：
last time XX also dun have me in her heart la..
somemore she liked another guy that time one leh..
my case more hard than yours leh.
you see, you are like this... that's why cannot lo..
must have confident ma
b4 i chase XX, i also got chase another at ns..
i was DEEPLY DEEPLY in love with that girl..
but she rejected me also lor...
put yourself together! you can de..
if cant, at least you know yourself tried....
at least got jiao dai to yourself ma.
对不起，并不是不想争取
只是没有恒心毅力去改变她的心
并不是我不想要给与时间等待
只怕再次换来失望
最重要的是
你现在已经拥有了
而我，哈哈，没用 ^_^
最近看到了一句金言，
暗恋是因为不敢去爱
我正是这个情况，LOL
我只是想说。。。。
就当给我自己
也给她时间吧
我真的需要疗伤期
我才刚从失败跌倒
还未曾爬起来
谢谢你们的关心
或许另一个角度看去，你真的厉害，我只是个懦夫，我怕，我不不敢，我。。。真的。。。哎，算了，我也不会讲，我需要逃回我婆婆家冷静冷静 >.<
缘分？
哈哈，哎哟，真的这么有缘么？哈哈，既然今天早上又遇见了 ＠．＠还差点偷看的时候被ｍｏｔｏｒ撞到，真是番薯＞．＜
如果两年前告诉我，这就是缘分，我百分百相信，这真的是缘分。可是当你曾经因缘分而让你的美梦变成恶梦，这样，这就不是缘分。缘分曾经让我认识了一个她，真的一切来得很巧，从上ｕｎｄａｎｇ起到考完ｓｐｍ一起混，一起闹，渐渐的，就。。。可是谁知道，原来她只不过是喜欢上你身边的朋友，ｌｏｌ，讽刺 ＞．＜ 缘分，我真的失去信心了，当一切巧合就算碰在一起，那也不一定是爱情的缘分。
或是这其实真的是上天赐的缘分，只是我每次没有把握好
最ａｍ ｄｕｉ 的就是那个１０９４ 真是 ＊（）＆％（）（＊＆％＆︿＄︿＄＊（）＊＆︿％＄＆︿＊（
我明明就跟ｕｎｃｌｅ ｂｏｏｋｉｎｇ了那个房间，谁知道ａｕｎｔｙ已经收了ｄｅｐｏｓｉｔ，ｗａｔ ｔｈｅ ＝＝
不然我就可以住那里了咯 Ｔ．Ｔ
Saturday 16 April 2011
无标题
在写这篇的时候，其实真的还没有写标题呢，因为我。。。。还没想到这篇部落到底重点在哪里？只是觉得心里有很多东西要说的 >.<
到底该说什么先呢？哈哈，就从我女的好朋友先说起吧。果真，我终于被放下来了，终于北上的帅哥放下包袱，感觉有点like，那个石头真的会软去，也不是那么硬，haii，不是重点== 昨天好特别哦，既然推着脚车回家，浪漫？其实有点倒霉。。。我向来都不会走在女生前面的，除非后面第三个人，推着脚车，突然心里就有着这么的感觉。她的背影是那么的黑暗的，孤独的，在我用力追逐的当时，其实她也知道的，她也加快步伐，不让你追上，追逐的路上且不是平路，还有很多陷阱（踏到水==），当你真的追到的时候，已经到终点（家）了。不懂北的那个与顺州的他们两是这样想的吗？
哈哈，无论如何，这个只是我想象的模拟罢了，纯粹觉得，在你的爱情路上，我真的不懂到底该说你可怜可悲，还是其实问题其实也出现在你身上呢？这个，我不会怎么回应，也不会，不能，不懂，如果能帮上你，因为现在处于的问题，是非常复杂的。。。 此刻只能送上你一句，加油吧
其实我昨晚告诉你的，是真的，当你处在一个很复杂的问题，尤其是这些情情爱爱的问题时，不要告诉你自己不要想不要想，请告诉你自己想！想！想！一个小时里面突然会想起两三次=真的很平常。告诉你自己去想，这样你的头脑潜意识暂时空白，然后就可以继续读书了，希望这会帮到你过你的final exam =D 这样我在january intake看到你了，成为你的senior =D，记得到时候叫我哥哥哦，哈哈 =}
涵，
希望你原谅我昨晚不出现，如果你想责怪我就责怪我吧，其实我真的有点erm。。。有心机的不想出现的，我深怕我出现了不懂该怎么是好咧 >.<
听说你一直等我出现？哈哈，是真的吗？感觉好假哦 >.< 如果是真的我其实蛮开心的啦，哈哈。
其实打从心底就是很想很想很想去的咯 ><!不懂你怎样想的，可能真的是我想入非非，想的太多，我只不过不想一切发生的太快，总觉得，这样就。。。。好像一切太快了。。。我放在这个blog上面好像很自私吧，干嘛要在你追得女生部落上面上传我的video？其实我只是不想欺骗你，真的，我心中曾有过一个女生，可是都已经成为过去了，人，总不能活在过去，不是我花心，只是我的真心非能感动她的心，因为她的心不属于我。。。。。
我把我做给你的video放上了我的部落格，因为要压小，所以真的不很清 >.< hehe，有时间再看多一次吧，这个有点点不同的哟=}记得看 =)
其实对于你，其实我自己是不配的，都怪自己不争气，上个sem既然出现了个fail，omg >< repeat sem，至少要october intake才轮到我上degree，相比你，我真没用 >< 一直在心里这么想，你会不会嫌弃一个那么没用的我？ T.T
离考试真的准准一个星期的时间了，好压力，书，其实也已经读到七七八八了，加油康，加油涵，只要考过了就好了 =D
3.0,我可以做到的！
到底该说什么先呢？哈哈，就从我女的好朋友先说起吧。果真，我终于被放下来了，终于北上的帅哥放下包袱，感觉有点like，那个石头真的会软去，也不是那么硬，haii，不是重点== 昨天好特别哦，既然推着脚车回家，浪漫？其实有点倒霉。。。我向来都不会走在女生前面的，除非后面第三个人，推着脚车，突然心里就有着这么的感觉。她的背影是那么的黑暗的，孤独的，在我用力追逐的当时，其实她也知道的，她也加快步伐，不让你追上，追逐的路上且不是平路，还有很多陷阱（踏到水==），当你真的追到的时候，已经到终点（家）了。不懂北的那个与顺州的他们两是这样想的吗？
哈哈，无论如何，这个只是我想象的模拟罢了，纯粹觉得，在你的爱情路上，我真的不懂到底该说你可怜可悲，还是其实问题其实也出现在你身上呢？这个，我不会怎么回应，也不会，不能，不懂，如果能帮上你，因为现在处于的问题，是非常复杂的。。。 此刻只能送上你一句，加油吧
其实我昨晚告诉你的，是真的，当你处在一个很复杂的问题，尤其是这些情情爱爱的问题时，不要告诉你自己不要想不要想，请告诉你自己想！想！想！一个小时里面突然会想起两三次=真的很平常。告诉你自己去想，这样你的头脑潜意识暂时空白，然后就可以继续读书了，希望这会帮到你过你的final exam =D 这样我在january intake看到你了，成为你的senior =D，记得到时候叫我哥哥哦，哈哈 =}
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涵，
希望你原谅我昨晚不出现，如果你想责怪我就责怪我吧，其实我真的有点erm。。。有心机的不想出现的，我深怕我出现了不懂该怎么是好咧 >.<
听说你一直等我出现？哈哈，是真的吗？感觉好假哦 >.< 如果是真的我其实蛮开心的啦，哈哈。
其实打从心底就是很想很想很想去的咯 ><!不懂你怎样想的，可能真的是我想入非非，想的太多，我只不过不想一切发生的太快，总觉得，这样就。。。。好像一切太快了。。。我放在这个blog上面好像很自私吧，干嘛要在你追得女生部落上面上传我的video？其实我只是不想欺骗你，真的，我心中曾有过一个女生，可是都已经成为过去了，人，总不能活在过去，不是我花心，只是我的真心非能感动她的心，因为她的心不属于我。。。。。
我把我做给你的video放上了我的部落格，因为要压小，所以真的不很清 >.< hehe，有时间再看多一次吧，这个有点点不同的哟=}记得看 =)
其实对于你，其实我自己是不配的，都怪自己不争气，上个sem既然出现了个fail，omg >< repeat sem，至少要october intake才轮到我上degree，相比你，我真没用 >< 一直在心里这么想，你会不会嫌弃一个那么没用的我？ T.T
离考试真的准准一个星期的时间了，好压力，书，其实也已经读到七七八八了，加油康，加油涵，只要考过了就好了 =D
3.0,我可以做到的！
Wednesday 13 April 2011
Busy busy busy
hemm, seem like it's time for final again >< so scared so scared, must start to study already, this sem i had a erm.... not consider as unreachable lar, quite high hope of myself, a target set by myself to reach, i wan get gpa 3.0!!! hahahaha!
it's been 2 days i dint get a nice sleep, finally tonite i could get a nice nice sleep, haha. erm, reason??? I had used a software called sony vegas pro 10 to make a video for my friend. haha, oh yea, it's her birthday. hemm, 断断续续的48hours for onli 1mins and 33 seconds video, walao eh =.= this software kinda nice o, no many limatation so u can make many thing as what u tot what u wan, haha!
在我脑海出现过了这么一句话，付出，不该给不对的人，而不是不值得的人，因为当你为她付出，她是值得你这样去做的。哈哈，做给欣怡的video，是我比赛后第一次触碰的东西，结果只是换来了句谢谢，然后offline睡觉，原因：？？？ 哈哈，你知我知就好了。啊，算了，说回重点,seriously this software kinda hard to use but just, haha, worth it, it proves again the fact of JT, my lecturer, we must believe in yourself, then you sure can do it. haha. actually this is the thing that i wan try in this process, wheather is it if i believe in myself then i can succeed >< 这个她，is something that i unreachable or mayb in other words, i had no strength no guts to get a try, hmmm....... somemore the girl might no feel to me? it also might be i seriously need a rest to recover what i had just gone through... it's pain indeed >< unless a sign was released, i will remain at origin point :) 我期待，可是并没有等待，我失望，可是未曾绝望，还等着希望 =D
hemm, recently happens something that i kinda expected? As i said, once a thing really changed, no matter how hard, how welll you try, you also couldnt revise back process to make it just the same like last time. A she keep try to recover the gap between us, but unfortunate, how well you try how well you make, it's still the same, haha, coz the problem not at me, as what u said, he changed become more afflication towards you, and
i change to become a life not mine. haha, u r so silly my girl, changes is just to make ADAPTION TO NEW ENVIRONMENT, wasnt what as u said, haha, when i see that, i wan laugh out somemore @.@ i dint jealous in any but just... hemm, haha, life is like tat, 如你常说的，算了啦，哈哈 XD
我这次写这个blog，我真的放弃了，欣怡，我有心没力，我不敢再爱你了。。。我已经累了，真的很累很累，我等不到你回心转意，对不起，我不是个毅力强的男生，如果时间允许我继续等，我只会更伤，更痛，对我来说，做不成情侣，我们还是朋友吧？哈哈，初初应该会很尴尬，可是久了也许会更好 ^_^ 这次，是我在爱情里面，唯一的一次，是没有清清楚楚交代一切，因为我觉得，人，是会随着事物改变而成长。 有时候事情让它自己迷迷糊糊的过，不一定是个坏事，至少现在，我是这样想的。。。。。。我真的累了。。。。。。
it's been 2 days i dint get a nice sleep, finally tonite i could get a nice nice sleep, haha. erm, reason??? I had used a software called sony vegas pro 10 to make a video for my friend. haha, oh yea, it's her birthday. hemm, 断断续续的48hours for onli 1mins and 33 seconds video, walao eh =.= this software kinda nice o, no many limatation so u can make many thing as what u tot what u wan, haha!
在我脑海出现过了这么一句话，付出，不该给不对的人，而不是不值得的人，因为当你为她付出，她是值得你这样去做的。哈哈，做给欣怡的video，是我比赛后第一次触碰的东西，结果只是换来了句谢谢，然后offline睡觉，原因：？？？ 哈哈，你知我知就好了。啊，算了，说回重点,seriously this software kinda hard to use but just, haha, worth it, it proves again the fact of JT, my lecturer, we must believe in yourself, then you sure can do it. haha. actually this is the thing that i wan try in this process, wheather is it if i believe in myself then i can succeed >< 这个她，is something that i unreachable or mayb in other words, i had no strength no guts to get a try, hmmm....... somemore the girl might no feel to me? it also might be i seriously need a rest to recover what i had just gone through... it's pain indeed >< unless a sign was released, i will remain at origin point :) 我期待，可是并没有等待，我失望，可是未曾绝望，还等着希望 =D
hemm, recently happens something that i kinda expected? As i said, once a thing really changed, no matter how hard, how welll you try, you also couldnt revise back process to make it just the same like last time. A she keep try to recover the gap between us, but unfortunate, how well you try how well you make, it's still the same, haha, coz the problem not at me, as what u said, he changed become more afflication towards you, and
i change to become a life not mine. haha, u r so silly my girl, changes is just to make ADAPTION TO NEW ENVIRONMENT, wasnt what as u said, haha, when i see that, i wan laugh out somemore @.@ i dint jealous in any but just... hemm, haha, life is like tat, 如你常说的，算了啦，哈哈 XD
我这次写这个blog，我真的放弃了，欣怡，我有心没力，我不敢再爱你了。。。我已经累了，真的很累很累，我等不到你回心转意，对不起，我不是个毅力强的男生，如果时间允许我继续等，我只会更伤，更痛，对我来说，做不成情侣，我们还是朋友吧？哈哈，初初应该会很尴尬，可是久了也许会更好 ^_^ 这次，是我在爱情里面，唯一的一次，是没有清清楚楚交代一切，因为我觉得，人，是会随着事物改变而成长。 有时候事情让它自己迷迷糊糊的过，不一定是个坏事，至少现在，我是这样想的。。。。。。我真的累了。。。。。。
Wednesday 6 April 2011
最长的故事
对我而言，近期发生的事情实在是太多太多了，用十根手指也算不完我的事情（考试以外）。真的要一一解决，我觉得，好像不大可能，更何况是完美的处理。真如我一个朋友而言，人生简简单单就好，为什么搞到自己那么复杂呢？ 哈哈，可能这就是我的人生，不能然自己平凡下来吧？
原来人总是口是心非，口说期待两位好朋友的恋情，当事实到来时却发现，原来自己不能失去好朋友，觉得朋友最高地位，分享了给别人，好一段时间，考试温习的时候，总一直想起，到底该怎样说，忍，忍，忍，考完才算，虽知道说着不要想不要想，一切尽在脑海中。。。
其实我真的没有在生气，只是，只是我一直不懂怎么去说，怎么去讲，才是最好的方法，可以肯定的是，我从来就没有在生气。。。请谅解我对你的ignore
你还记得上次我们曾在mm的时候，一件事吗，我那时候不是追着tsen，然后yb不是好像吃醋，觉得我现在不要他了，你还记得这件事吗？其实yb不是真的喜欢我，只是觉得好朋友已经不要自己了，所以才有像吃醋的感觉罢了，你应该也懂吧？
其实我也曾这样，我以前中学有个男的好知己，当他有了女朋友后，我真的很不开心，觉得好像好朋友被分享去，不能像以前那样，一起玩，一起去这里那里，变得像孤独一个人了。。。。
其实我现在就是这样，我对一个好朋友吃醋了，如果我说，那个是个男的，那还不用紧，因为你慢慢会觉醒，那是个男个，我们之间是不可能的。可是这次却是个女的，真的是大件事了啦！！！当你跟那位女的好朋友太好的时候 ，突然却变成了你的朋友的女朋友，心情像。。。？？？自己也不懂了，说吃醋也不是，说为她感到开心，也还好啦。。。就跟以前一样，觉得失去了个好朋友，不能像以前那样玩，不能那样开玩笑，好像什么都被约束了。。。。我知道你可能说，我们还可以像以前那样玩，可是真的会有所不同，其实这是怕失去朋友还是真的爱上了我这位有了男朋友的朋友呢？我自己也不知道，也不想知道，我很想做个鸵鸟，把头埋进洞里就好了，真的不想理阿。就算说出来了，也不能改变什么，变成什么，可是这一切一切却影响着我，好痛苦好难受，什么都不是似的。。。 我真的很享受那种在好朋友与恋人之间的感觉，也许我是自私吧，可是现在已经没有这样的可能了。。。。我真的。。。。不懂要怎样了。好像真的失去了什么。。。。
我知道说出来并不能改变任何东西，我也没自私到要改变现在的任何东西，只想让你知道，为什么我近期是在逃避，不是在气。我不想有第三个人知道，因为我希望这是我们之间的秘密，包括男的。也许你可以告诉他，我真的没有在气他，只是暂时有私人原因不方便。。。
最后，请谅解我的逃避，也不要对我像哥哥那样好了，我很怕到最后，我们三个之间连朋友也不能做了，至少现在先让时间淡化，我相信我自己能忘记，然后做回要好的朋友，可是真的不是一时三刻的事情，请给我时间。。。。我们乃是朋友。。。
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曾经想什么都不理了，直接把这篇文章穿给我好友看，只怕她看了，会误会，结果还是选择了用讲的。现在才知道，最重要不是怎么去解决，是你怎么分辨清楚你的事情。。。
解决了第一件事，想解决与你，欣怡的事，却懒懒散散，怕面对事实，一直找借口，没有找上你。我知道，你曾努力给机会我过，可是你喜欢的，根本就不是我，心，从来就没有放过在我身上，你只是曾经试过要，这并不是谁的错，可能，是我在措的时机出现，也或许是处女座不变的性格，只有她们认定伴侣，不可能伴侣来先肯定自己，做不成青绿，我们都还是朋友，只是觉得，你加油吧，你也知道你的等待是。。。。 算了，不予置评你要的爱情路，爱情观。。。。
无论如何，谢谢你，至少曾经给机会我，也给机会你自己，让我喜欢你，我也i学习到一样东西，就是凡事不能冲动，结果还没看清楚状况，伤害了自己
爱情的路上，我总是坎坷，从被骗的初恋到现在，我都一直在成长，不再幼稚，不再期望，爱情，我没有绝望，只会等待，希望有一天，如所说的，真爱会出现，康，在爱情里，真的累了，需要一个长长的休息。在我现在的脑海里，放得不是其它东西，是读书，我不能辜负我父母亲对我的特别疼爱，特别对待，得不辜负他们的期盼，这个学期，3.0，我会加油！
原来人总是口是心非，口说期待两位好朋友的恋情，当事实到来时却发现，原来自己不能失去好朋友，觉得朋友最高地位，分享了给别人，好一段时间，考试温习的时候，总一直想起，到底该怎样说，忍，忍，忍，考完才算，虽知道说着不要想不要想，一切尽在脑海中。。。
其实我真的没有在生气，只是，只是我一直不懂怎么去说，怎么去讲，才是最好的方法，可以肯定的是，我从来就没有在生气。。。请谅解我对你的ignore
你还记得上次我们曾在mm的时候，一件事吗，我那时候不是追着tsen，然后yb不是好像吃醋，觉得我现在不要他了，你还记得这件事吗？其实yb不是真的喜欢我，只是觉得好朋友已经不要自己了，所以才有像吃醋的感觉罢了，你应该也懂吧？
其实我也曾这样，我以前中学有个男的好知己，当他有了女朋友后，我真的很不开心，觉得好像好朋友被分享去，不能像以前那样，一起玩，一起去这里那里，变得像孤独一个人了。。。。
其实我现在就是这样，我对一个好朋友吃醋了，如果我说，那个是个男的，那还不用紧，因为你慢慢会觉醒，那是个男个，我们之间是不可能的。可是这次却是个女的，真的是大件事了啦！！！当你跟那位女的好朋友太好的时候 ，突然却变成了你的朋友的女朋友，心情像。。。？？？自己也不懂了，说吃醋也不是，说为她感到开心，也还好啦。。。就跟以前一样，觉得失去了个好朋友，不能像以前那样玩，不能那样开玩笑，好像什么都被约束了。。。。我知道你可能说，我们还可以像以前那样玩，可是真的会有所不同，其实这是怕失去朋友还是真的爱上了我这位有了男朋友的朋友呢？我自己也不知道，也不想知道，我很想做个鸵鸟，把头埋进洞里就好了，真的不想理阿。就算说出来了，也不能改变什么，变成什么，可是这一切一切却影响着我，好痛苦好难受，什么都不是似的。。。 我真的很享受那种在好朋友与恋人之间的感觉，也许我是自私吧，可是现在已经没有这样的可能了。。。。我真的。。。。不懂要怎样了。好像真的失去了什么。。。。
我知道说出来并不能改变任何东西，我也没自私到要改变现在的任何东西，只想让你知道，为什么我近期是在逃避，不是在气。我不想有第三个人知道，因为我希望这是我们之间的秘密，包括男的。也许你可以告诉他，我真的没有在气他，只是暂时有私人原因不方便。。。
最后，请谅解我的逃避，也不要对我像哥哥那样好了，我很怕到最后，我们三个之间连朋友也不能做了，至少现在先让时间淡化，我相信我自己能忘记，然后做回要好的朋友，可是真的不是一时三刻的事情，请给我时间。。。。我们乃是朋友。。。
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曾经想什么都不理了，直接把这篇文章穿给我好友看，只怕她看了，会误会，结果还是选择了用讲的。现在才知道，最重要不是怎么去解决，是你怎么分辨清楚你的事情。。。
解决了第一件事，想解决与你，欣怡的事，却懒懒散散，怕面对事实，一直找借口，没有找上你。我知道，你曾努力给机会我过，可是你喜欢的，根本就不是我，心，从来就没有放过在我身上，你只是曾经试过要，这并不是谁的错，可能，是我在措的时机出现，也或许是处女座不变的性格，只有她们认定伴侣，不可能伴侣来先肯定自己，做不成青绿，我们都还是朋友，只是觉得，你加油吧，你也知道你的等待是。。。。 算了，不予置评你要的爱情路，爱情观。。。。
无论如何，谢谢你，至少曾经给机会我，也给机会你自己，让我喜欢你，我也i学习到一样东西，就是凡事不能冲动，结果还没看清楚状况，伤害了自己
爱情的路上，我总是坎坷，从被骗的初恋到现在，我都一直在成长，不再幼稚，不再期望，爱情，我没有绝望，只会等待，希望有一天，如所说的，真爱会出现，康，在爱情里，真的累了，需要一个长长的休息。在我现在的脑海里，放得不是其它东西，是读书，我不能辜负我父母亲对我的特别疼爱，特别对待，得不辜负他们的期盼，这个学期，3.0，我会加油！
Friday 1 April 2011
A rest needed indeed
In facebook, saw u participate in some kind of competition is it??? Haha, but i seriously dunno what kind of competition u participate @@
Anyway, Gambateh noh!!!
Hope u today after competition got time to find you, seriously had something really wan to make clear with you.... Sin Yi.... It's time for some decision =)
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