Wednesday, 29 June 2011
伟康,执着的我
很少的时间,我会在我部落格里面,写一篇东西,是没有第三者,没有其他人,说的,都是我自己,也许人就是这样,总有例外的一次。不懂为什么,我的人生观会是那么懦弱,那么的需要,那么的不能缺乏, 友情与亲情,在我字典内,也许更比不上我的爱情观,这,我也不想的,我,就是不懂,为什么。。。屡战屡败,这个用词形容我坎坷的爱情路,一点都不夸张,一点都不夸大,也或许这样的结果更让我更在意,有种要征服它的感觉,伟康,就是一个这么不能输,输不起的人。昨天,我终于与我暧昧模糊不清的网友终于有了个句号,是我踏出了第一步,问了答案。我们中二就认识了,认识的过程蛮偶然与特别,可是昨天她说了句,我们是朋友阿,是朋友关系,然后我就没有回复她了, 很多人眼里,这样的我很现实,很不成熟,可能会觉得我很坏,我觉得,我这样做,我不想浪费我的时间,也不要浪费女方浪费她的时间来管我,既然我们素未谋面,这样就干脆不要再联络了,朋友两个字,我也不想要,免得以后有什么尴尬出现。
至于成熟这两个字,我非常在意,某个当时,我承认我真的含有不成熟成份,可是你这样把我摆上台,难道你一点也不觉得幼稚吗?这个事实的真假成份,我有保留,因为我懂,告诉我的人,是你的敌人,哈哈,可是,我并没有抹杀它可能的成分,澄清两个字,一路走来,我学会了,凡事不要太清楚,对自己根本就没有好处,所以我选择了埋藏在心中,也许我真的还有那么一点点对你的恨意,可是表面上,我其实能毫无保留的跟你玩跟闹,假面,面具,不懂何时开始,已经能随意戴上及脱下,往好的方面想,这其实是,我成长了,学会了配合。
情根,暂时不懂如何,神奇的从我执著那么久,突然消失了,没有特别的占据了我。谢谢,谢谢你们,9月的处女座们,我衷心地谢谢你们,我的成长,是你们引领的,更让我,无论从爱情角度,甚至友情,friendship角度上了许许多多,宝贵的课,是我人生里面重要的一页。
话说我文章内不会提起其他人,可是还是提起了,真抱歉亚,不要对号入座,可是如果觉得我在说着你,请不要生气,我都不是在怪责,埋怨你们,反而我真的衷心谢谢,谢谢你们。
Sunday, 26 June 2011
Poh Yee, is that you?
有很多的朋友,可是“看起来朋友很多,可是知心的没有几个”这句话很深刻的形容了双子
双子孤傲是因为他们自信,双子善变是因为世界在改变,双子没有耐性是因为他们发现
双子孤傲是因为他们自信,双子善变是因为世界在改变,双子没有耐性是因为他们发现
Saturday, 25 June 2011
与你分享的快乐
the lyrics state that, it's fate that time had decided who will be your friend. 我不懂你有否看过我的部落格,其实,认识你之后,我真的有被你影响我的人生很大很大,好的坏的一大堆,说也说不清。陪你,只是我唯一能做的罢了,并不需要特别谢谢我。
you tot i gossip you with yan bin, no la, i just saw the post in which u said u no vehicle get to the kampar grand hotel and said to bin that nid not to advice u/ convince u in any, i had no other mean and we never discuss anything. In that post, i could see the attitude which you had never change. You said, nvm la, i will find my way get to there, dont u know that sentence of you, always make ppl feel like 欠了你的,不可不去迁就你
ya i agrred that every single human being had their own secret inside them, everyone of us tends to not telling ppl anything about themselves. but you know, truely ask urself, is it really when u hide it from others, could u forget it slowly and slowly? i trust u rememeber it every moment empty of you? am i right? this is a fact which ppl telling themselve not to think not to think, but instead they thinking that stuff every single moment... From you, i learned that yes, ppl might have their own secret, but still 你有成功的,把它藏起来?根本没有想起的一杀哪?还是每一刻都在你脑海里流动着?
我其实一路以来很好奇一个东西,你常说,我不想说出来,不想牵涉更多人,不想更多人痛苦,为什么你会觉得你告诉了那个人,那个人会痛苦?friends is all about to share you happiness and sadness but not suffer @.@ 你家淹水,如果想要水退,是否把水扫出去?我要说的是,如果你一直把东西像水积着,怎么会有“退潮” 的一天呢?
what i did what i do for you was just so minor so minor, need not to say thanks to me.如果说有让你放松到,我黑也黑的值得 @.@ 如果想真正看见向日葵,学着不要把东西都往身体扛吧。我朋友曾经说过一个很经典的话,如果你告诉自己,我要减肥,你潜意识的就告诉自己,我要肥了才能瘦,反而可能你换个角度想,我要变苗条,可能你真的会达到真正你要的效果。我想说的是,诺你常告诉自己,我要放下,你不经意的灌输了自己,我要把事情扛起来才能放得下,哪,你何时才能放下,看见你的未来呢?
lastly, it had been time which i dint use blog to reply thing ler @@ hmm, facebook nowadays so public, luckily still got a site which let me say all these to you...
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
~迟来的update~
从sunway回来都接近一个星期,我真的不是错觉,也不是凭感觉,你真的变了,原因到底是什么呢?为了什么呢? 我真的不知道哦,我很想知道,可是。。。我面对着另一个问题。我记得,我回来前,我们的话题滔滔不绝,我知道,我的一通电话根本帮不上你什么,虽然你曾在电话,眼泪就快淹出来我这边(不是笑你得说),i just want say that no mater how you sad, happy, cheer, emo i always hope that at least you tell me something, the step i reached kl, that moment still i feel u r so talkative to me, and there were many2 many2 things inside u that wanna said to me, but still once our 1st meeting, u sicked, i just tot that you are feeling unwell to tell me something/anything, but still today this moment, i know that, it must be something happened cause you not to told me anything. Why i say so? even a you planned trip, i duno anything about it, yea, i admit i really feel very upset and a bit like dulan when he disturbed me again in facebook, it had been times he dint do so... but still if not from him, i duno the things happened on u, i am so suprised and cant believe it when he told me so, a rm100 for almost 15 days, even i also rm200 for 15 days kinda hard for me to tank, so pity of u... the fake smile tat hang on you was not sweet, it kinds of pressure, pity and heavy, i am so sad to see that cause i cant do anything on that to help you. if u feel sad to tell ur friend about what happened on u actually it is more sad when u tell nothing to ur friend.... sorry i dint make too aggresive move to noe about you, cause我不自认了解你,可是我知道,我强迫是得不到答案的,你也不会告诉我的,唯有等时机成熟你来告诉我,是这样吗?会有这样的一天吗?对不起,我发现我拥有着两个我在意的朋友,我却不能把所有心机平分的给你们,我觉得我还是有自私的一个moment....我暂时把比较多的心机放在了另一个朋友身上,那就是你了,张小燕。
请别觉得亏欠了我什么的,真的不需要这么想,并且你没有,我想我该跟你说的都已经说过了,只是想你知道,我们真的认识时间乃很短,需要更多的时间经营+磨练,偷偷告诉你,你觉得我了解你的那些,都是别人偷偷告诉我/我去打听才知道的,并不是我厉害,只是有时候我空余时间太多了,effort也许放多了一点点,才显出你的不足罢了,你已经做得最好了。。。
请别觉得亏欠了我什么的,真的不需要这么想,并且你没有,我想我该跟你说的都已经说过了,只是想你知道,我们真的认识时间乃很短,需要更多的时间经营+磨练,偷偷告诉你,你觉得我了解你的那些,都是别人偷偷告诉我/我去打听才知道的,并不是我厉害,只是有时候我空余时间太多了,effort也许放多了一点点,才显出你的不足罢了,你已经做得最好了。。。
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