"没事情"发生

今天早考完，回到家才中午，够力热哦。My friend asked, go write your blog eh, i am your follower, i wan read your blog!!! LOL, once i saw that on msn, i wan to laugh out =.= u tot write bloYog like write story meh, must something happened on the particular day i just can write out something right, haha, so cute la u 凯“奇”.  indeed actually i also hope a single day with no anything happen, LOL, but? lol, sounds impossible lor, must let him say me day day emo d, hahahahahaha.

duno y le, i oweys can detect something bad happen, i can feel it will happen but i just unwilling to accept the fact that it will happen, it like very hemm, like 矛盾？明知道事实却不想接受事实。。。我好像真得很矛盾哦。。。

write ady so many, like still yet get into main point? should start this story from where? actually since i saw his blog is 1st posted up on facebook, i ady can guess out, tonite might no dinner ady, something sure will happen, who knows, when i message ask her, indeed she really say so =.= omg, i really so kuat, like that oso can guess dao, LOL(praising myself indeed, haha) if she just told me that she dont wan to join the dinner onli, that was acceptable. hemm, but she refuse more that than, she said, even the gathering of our group also dont wan to join, LOOOL! is that a joke? You even could ask me, how if others dun go y they can, how i will look towards them? I very funny lo, this kind of questin, u tot u throw it to me then i will think that,ya hor, y i wan scold u o? They had their own whatever valid/ rubbish reason i still duno yet, but 1 thing that i can sure from u that is that you had a rubbish reason for me, which 0% of convincing me, ok, u nid not to come. as u said u tired wan a sleep on the day exam ended, that still acceptable, but is just becoz of escaping a guy, do youself logically think that is this a valid reason, gosh = =

again, u r allowed to use ur own way, own style to solve your problem, but please dont put onli your perception to solve a problem, it must also based on logical right? If you seriously hope a problem could be solved perfectly please dont always say dun care la, ppl wan how think then how think la, thats not the way, you know that. and you said, what he said i will remember inside my heart. then i ask u, u r purposely dont understand the real mean inside his words or just simply really dont understand the real fact message that he want to bring on? so now ends up wit what? the gathering seems to be fail now, so you HAPPY? eastlakers are alot, if seriously the function really goes on, you think without him the function will GOES ON AS NORMAL?　YOU said that what all these not suppose he explain but i am the one explain
1.is it weather he explain u will listen
2.don't you think what i say all are fact?
3.you say so what u trying to escape/denied?fact???

lol, 8 packs of instand noodles, how could i ends them up by this saturday? unless very lunch and dinner

i also eat it, omg, like that sure sienz die me, but i really dun wan together move it to my new living

place lar ><

这个ｓｅｍ要结束了，搬家姑且开心，可是ｓｔａｒｔ　ｎｅｘｔ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｃｏｕｌｄｎｔ　ｂｅ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｎｅｉｇｈｂｏｕｒ　ａｎｙｍｏｒｅ，　酸　～．～　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｎｏ　ｇｕｔｓ，　ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｉ　ａｄｙ　ｐｌａｎ　ｎｏｔ　ｔｏ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｏｕｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ　ａｎｄ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｌｅｔ　ｉｔ　ｅａｔ　ｄｕｓｔ　ｔｈｅｒｅ　ｂａ．．．

爱与不爱，一线之间

今天在图书馆看到你，眼神好尴尬哦，＞＜　都不懂要为你开心，还是为你感到伤心列， 真的这个考试看得出为你带来的压力好到哦，瘦了很多很多很多很多哦〉　>.<  蛮心疼地说～

my teacher had quote this for me b4, 天才与蠢才一线之间而已，when you study hard, indeed you had onli 2 results, 1 is u will be genius, but when u use like hemm, some overpush method, then u will become the silly 1 instead of the genius 1, haha. Hemm.... it's same when come to love? love and doesnt love it's just a step away onli... I noe that we could be onli friends, oh yea, that will be something not bad too. But could you just please let me selfish enough to own more than this? T.T　when  i plan to make some effort try to make you touch, but on the same time, i had no talent, no skill, doesnt own any ability to make you feel touch to like me >< my God, i am a loser indeed, as said, belum lawan sudah mengaku kalah. LOL! i just fear a confession doesnt make the thing better instead worst the thing onli... i fear to gain but more fear to lose

actually i deeply affected by my 1 virgie friend, she said.有时候宁可保持现在的友谊，也不想更长远的发展．it's like when become a couple, there will be many worries many question there, it might brings more problem than love. It's another level of relationship. last time i do denied this fact in my dictionary, but since the phenomena is explaining, actually friends really indeed better than a soulmate...
其实我曾想，难道狮子座的我，真的不能与处女座的女生做情侣吗？really no exception case for me o? it's feel like if i have a chance in future, i hope really could break the unbreakable mitos lar >< sienz. haha, but still, had no virgie target yet, haha LMAO

只是一场梦？

夜晚总来的寂寞，来的平静，思想，也是杂乱的。想深一层，我到底对于爱情，是什么观念。我真的不是很相信星座的人，可是准到非得相信 >.<对于18号生日的我，真的是个爱情随波逐流的吗？当这个被吹捧，就喜欢这个，到换了季节，又喜欢另一个吗?又或者说，其实我现在还不是很想要，因为毕竟，现在的我总觉得，我还没有必要吧？哈哈，这就是我常说的，人性的犯贱，给你的时候不要，没有的时候吵要。。。LOL

关于如果是被朋友吹捧，我其实真的蛮被说中的咯 sienz >< 可是这却不能说我用情不专，我可是很专一地说（没有夸大><) girls will oweys ask this, he doesnt love me, he just had a like on me, so i oweys do answer them, yea, this moment i am sorry couldnt promise i love you but i will do my best to love you =D haha
Hemm, when you like a girl, it is a story, but when the girl doesnt like you,that'll be another story >< omg, hemm.... recently she just shows kinda cold reaction towards me le >< is this a sign that she wan to let me know to let her off.... the present that i bought for her still inside my room, do a confession needed? or just put and left the present to be frozen??? hmmm.... another big question big decision for me ><
a kinda funny situation that during my exam? haha, i accidently same venue of exam hall wif my "qing di" LOL,when saw him i also duno wan to greet him or angry him, haha, actually, i just duno how to respond to him onli la ^_^ LMAO

test almost ended, many things nid to ends up and there will b a 分离 soon, hmmm, tz9 tenants who will leave kampar and continue your kl life, gambateh ya, i will miss u all ya! T.T
i wan to swap house ler, but seriously really many thing inside my room , how to move leh?

好复杂。。

 昨晚，是我这个星期以来的第一次失眠。我非常好奇自己了，一个她也不足让我失眠，怎么你却这么有能力，能让我为了你的事而失眠呢？昨晚看到你的讯息，跟他一起去湖边吹风，突然觉得，怎么自己好像没被叫到的？＞．＜　ｏｍｇ，失去地位了。。。ｈｅｍｍ，到底事实真的是这样？还是我只是想太多了。还有，其实昨晚我真的有少少不爽啦，我讲你又讲，我很想喊，如果你要讲，我给你讲，我不讲！！！可是还是算了，讲出来对事情没有帮助。其实你想努力追她，我并没有阻止，只是不要再向我征询意见了可以吗？对我来说是一种折磨，是一种痛苦来的，我并没有阻止你得到你的幸福，可是不要再次要我断送我的友谊可以吗？谢谢你。对我来讲这样真的很残忍。。。

考试已经进入倒数期，星期六，星期日，and then 星期一就是考试了。哎哟，真的像个骆驼那样，乃没有把感情问题处理好，哈哈，向往一样，把它丢到考试后才解决吧.虽然说会影响读书的心情，可是哈哈，还是 硬硬把note给吃进脑袋里吧。很出乎预料之外，我的physics 既然拿到34分，omg，真的是3个sem以来最高分的一次了。^^　看到你在窗边晒着衣物的时候很想大喊，喂，小心点阿，不要跌倒哦，可是怕你听了后才真正跌下来就不好了，所以最后还是打消了那个念头，ＬＯＬ

我得快点收拾我的心情，快点进入ｆｕｌｌｙ读书ｍｏｏｄ了，不然真的我的梦想３．０会破灭。。。暂时，我可以把爱你的心，暂时藏起来，等考完试才拿出来给你看？哈哈，真的心底话很多，却不懂要怎么说，怎么表达，所以还是不写了　^^

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the following is just for the 1 who understand what i wrote

i dint means that you like him is a wrong la, but plz, dun lie urself that u even dun have an admire in your heart, if you really doesnt have any, then we..... lol, i oso lazy to repeat again, it might be oso might not that the prob between us is becoz present of he? lolz, just, u like this cheat ur fren is totally a hurt for me....


facebook ady aint no more a medium for me to said out what hidden inside my heart, my tought my mind my thinking, once say out there, it would be like the whole world will noe what r u saying about, blog recently had become a thing that i used to confess out what exploded inside my mind!

*~逃避的假期~*Part II~*

还以为逃回家就是一件好事，以为真的能就逃避一切的现实，事实，原来，amboi,rupanya "memperbohongkan" sendiri saja =.= sienz, still yet can focus on study, just flip over few pages of the bio chapter 3 and physic nuclear physics part saja =.= ends up do what at tapah? ._. keep facebook facebook on phone lor >< keep see what thing updated lo, especially? T.T really pitty lo like this. really affect my study mood deep deep >< so i decided to do it 99 ady >< decided to go for ipoh, hiak hiak, to??? shhh, better keep it as a secret first, so that it will be more suprised, now 天时 地理 仁和 都齐了 欠的就是东风而已 what i nid just a chance, so when shall it be? before exam? after exam? LOL, y must choose this kind period of time wor >< like this very sienz de noh, wan focus cannot, dun wan focus also cannot, duno what shall i do just the best way to solve this problem. Doing nothing like will “辜负” their 期望， if do till too over will like lost my style wor, but nvm la, haha,human do oweys have some exception case =D hope that i oso get a exception chance too? LOLs!

Hemm, this trip back tapah couldnt say not worth, i saw my grandma really get weaker and weaker indeed. while i reached, she at the kitchen, no matter how i phone the phone, also she dint heard it >< so no choice ran to back door and call her. she roughly could saw a ppl there but she just cant recognise who is that. her moving pace, her action, hemm, everything seems slow..... wa, 心疼死我了 >...< 最搞笑的是，晚餐菜明明很多，还是要我出去打包，不要给我吃！坏 >.< 还看着婆婆吃了两碗饭，好大吃＞．＜

*~逃避的假期~*

扯

walao，真的好像在看戏那样，演变到那么扯得？ >< 既然=。= omg 变到好够力夸张去。现在这样，怎么感觉好像连朋友也回不去了，只有两个选择，一就是要，二就是不要 O.o 可以有第三个选择吗 @.@ 我这次真的够够力晕去，粹！ @.@!!

邱/丘同学既然赠我这句：haiya.. chase girl must be face skin thick ma.. see me... face skin thick thick.. can liao lo!
可是对我来说，我从来就不是硬硬来的，怎么厚着脸皮去呢？感觉只会让女生反感似的 @.@
last time XX also dun have me in her heart la..
somemore she liked another guy that time one leh..
my case more hard than yours leh.
you see, you are like this... that's why cannot lo..
must have confident ma
b4 i chase XX, i also got chase another at ns..
i was DEEPLY DEEPLY in love with that girl..
but she rejected me also lor...
put yourself together! you can de..
if cant, at least you know yourself tried....
at least got jiao dai to yourself ma.

对不起，并不是不想争取
只是没有恒心毅力去改变她的心
并不是我不想要给与时间等待
只怕再次换来失望
最重要的是
你现在已经拥有了
而我，哈哈，没用 ^_^

最近看到了一句金言，
 暗恋是因为不敢去爱
我正是这个情况，LOL

我只是想说。。。。
就当给我自己
也给她时间吧
我真的需要疗伤期
我才刚从失败跌倒
还未曾爬起来
谢谢你们的关心

或许另一个角度看去，你真的厉害，我只是个懦夫，我怕，我不不敢，我。。。真的。。。哎，算了，我也不会讲，我需要逃回我婆婆家冷静冷静 >.<