Happiness and lifes

I tend to have such a question in my brain, again and again asking myself, how i define the word happy? how consider as i felt happy and how will just consider emo? what consider as simple life? how i define my life as a simple life? how i live a simple life. these questions, again and again appeared inside my brain, repeating again and again.

It is so funny that i update my blog right at the library. that day, right after marketing fiesta, it was tuesday, i rmb it well, i found my happy inside my photo. Suprisingly, i also dont realised i was that happy. It might due to the environment i joined, so the happy was simply reflects from them. hanging out with yb frens, what they called "family day(wednesday)" was an happy day. previously, i thought that was just a joke in which they will very happy during their family day. However, once i joined them, wow, I'm wrong. They did very happy. in chinese, 他们那简单的笑感染了我，我也笑了。it is just too hard to described how happy they were, it just.. their happiness and smile are that simple, that pure. that happy. I really proud to join them although it is just once i join them. so sorry my frens, i said this with no harm, i doesnt mean that i'm not happy currently with you all, just that coincident which made me feel different in them :)

生日前后

已经有很久的时间没有提起劲写我的部落格了，很常就是写了，写到一半不懂该怎么继续下去然后放在draft里面生灰尘。这个生日真是惊喜连连，有惊也有喜。首先我要谢谢慧媚为我策划的生日惊喜。心存感恩　^^V pmp gang+fren gang一起帮我庆祝，真的谢谢你们，很感动。。。那个叮当蛋糕我放在冰箱不舍得吃 @@　哈哈，姐姐我会记得你给我盖的cream 然后跑掉，ish! :PPP

下来kl其实巧遇到我的生日，因为那个不是我真正下来的目的，嘻嘻。无论如何，谢谢你白忙里抽空拿 cream　砸我，哈哈哈哈，真的没有想到呢。谢谢你的礼物，好像很贵重　＠＠　有点不好意思呢，也不舍得拿来穿 @@ 其实这次来是为了提早帮你庆祝生日，因为怕你回家＋我考试，所以只有这段时间最适合不过了。谢谢权，民，杰愿意抽空出来，没有你们她肯定没有那么容易上当的啦，哈哈哈哈。生日礼物其实也弄好了很久，你看到这篇的时候记得向我哥哥拿你的生日礼物，虽然不能亲手送给你，可是我觉得礼物的心意是我这位朋友给你最后的祝福。907 代表着我每天给与你的祝福。　

这么的一天，在那天你告诉我你决定读diploma开始就预了会有这样的一天。错不是你和我，错只是在于时间，我们这段时间刚好遇上了不对的时间，你考试，辛苦你了。有空记得来找我哟，短时间都不会来找你了，怕你忙，哈哈哈。我也该回去准备我的考试等等。提早收拾我的心情，马六甲之旅，有缘再去吧，我曾说过，去那里都无所谓，只要跟朋友一起就好了。在我心中朋友永远排第一位，因为我知道我家人，我父母我哥哥我姐姐姐，就算我做了什么再错的事情都会包容鲁莽的我，所以他们无论怎样，都在我心中排第二。一颗碎的像灰那样的心是无法用任何方东西弥补的因为真的真的受伤了到极点。别总在觉得即将失去才来叫我dear,我跟我哥哥不同，我不受这一套。其实我没有打算放弃你这个朋友，可是我觉得，把你留在我心中就好了，不必常提，不必常联络，不必常聊天也不必常见面，因为你太忙了，要见到你真的难上加难。我不想给你任何压力，所以昨晚我讯息都删掉，不想影响你考试。胃痛，骂过，讲过，什么都做了，就是不听话，连我哥哥也给你气坏了。我们是坏人，你朋友通通都是好人，你胃痛看了医生，你说一声去吃冰就陪你去，那些是好人，我们是坏人，你一言都听不进去。不懂的珍惜一次再一次，我真的不懂如何是好，我觉得我自己好傻，好笨，都在对着空气说话。你放心，我以后都不会在唠叨你了，你要照顾自己，胃痛了记得找你的coursemate,你就是爱这样，希望得到新朋友对你的同情关心，可是你却从未发现，你身边一直有着很关心你的我，很关心你的朋友，伟杰。 这些关心你的人不帅不起眼，你总爱踩我们的底线，一而再，再而三的不珍惜不代表我会放纵让你这样，对不起，我收回对你好，对你的关心，你永远会在我心中出现，可是诉我已经很累，我不懂如何爱你珍惜你，关心你，因为你至少不懂的珍惜我对你好。别让我看穿，你搬家是迟早的事，我不会看错的。

如果你看了有冲动打电话给我的，我求求你想好说什么才打给我，我不想在电话放空，我真的会哭，我不想，我第二次为了一件人们觉得愚蠢（为了一个异性普通朋友而哭）的事而哭。我真的不想这样。。。。错不在你和我，this is life, life still goes on, there will be no one derserve to accompany you until your life end, so i dint blame on you because i know that you not deserve to accompany my whole life. I swear i would stay tough, as well as you  :)

还有谢谢贤的sunway trip,有两年时间没来了，都忘了该怎么走怎么玩，人超多。更谢谢你给的生日礼物，谢谢你。我第一件叮当衣服，嘻嘻！

跟嘉玲在kl见面，看了一出戏还吃了她妈妈炒的果条　＠＠　真不好意思呢，既然要安第请吃，哈哈哈哈， paiseh paiseh @_@ 最不好意思的还是要麻烦安第赶最后几碟然后载我们去火车站，谢谢了安第。　^_^V

我的生日愿望看来没有完全的实现，我不要求名贵奢侈的礼物，我要求很简单，朋友在身边就是对我的肯定。

yb Finance course geh fren

badminton 

going jusco for movie

stalked jie jie schedule

poor wei jian >.<

orchado after cultural expo ^^

wet us in cultural expo XD

nandos kat Station 18

5 of us XD

movie day with yb "family"

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jie jie at yue zhong lou, how cute she was XD

贤妻 XD cook thing for 3 ma lat lou drink

my sweet grandma

she wrap her mouth happily LOL

big head me

big head han sin

big head jie jie 

big head dai fan shu 

bowie jie <3

my recent activities

pmp gang!

家好月圆餐厅，庆功宴！吃到凌晨3点都不饿

SUSHI BONANZA!

IS groupmates, u all r da best!

Jie Jie with me

Fan shu with me LOL

Bowie with me XD

presentation day~

BOYS gang~

YB birthday XD

endless time update

times passed like eyes blink, suprisingly a month had passed and it had been a month time in which i dint update my blog. i seldom update my blog for happy thing, dint i? majority my blog only update with some my hidden feelings, lolz. i oweys been asked, a happy person like you will have something unhappy to worry or in other word, will i have bad emotion? sure i would have some,or maybe a lot? LOLZ i am just a normal human being for sure i would have some bad emotion as normal human but just i dint express it until a day, it exploded due to excessive accumulation.

pmp had ended for 2 weeks of time still i feel that time passed really so so so fast.i dint realise that 4 weeks of time is that sort of fast. really really fast.

PS; i forgot when i wrote this, so i wrote it halfway duno what shall i continue jor

great time with great peoples

since 16th May until now, although it just like 2 and half week but things happened like tons, some pressed on me, some happens on like what i like. as what GOD decide the fate, when u get something then u will lost something, i totally agreed. 20 minutes to 4am then it will b my time to sleep, since i got times, so i decided to update my 2 weeks blog ><

shall start will some bad thing or good? i prefer to put bad thing first. hmmmm, first indeed, i dint blame for others wrong, i know it does my wrong, my wrong in which i duno how, i dint mange to hold a good relationship with a well build friendship friend as compared to make a new friend. make a new friend is easy but i dont know why it is too hard for me to keep. aiii, anything lar, i doesnt care so much ady, see 1 step walk 1 step lol... but 1 thing i promised i never do, i never have any more than friend on you, no matter you see this or not tak pa la LOL

hmmm... PMP was like a tired busy packed activities no matter in between mentor and mentee, mentee and mentee, mentor and mentor or mentee and comittee or mentor and commitee, it's like a big family who played together as long as u play with them. i never regret to join this program, it just a matter of in which weather i shall back home on september or still continue as second time, if my dad dint rush me back,i really wont mind to stay.... LOL.... not least, shall thanks my partner oweys do the minority work that i oweys careless on, so glad to have "aunty Jie Xin" as my partner XD hope that i dint bring much troubles for her.

in this 2 weeks, i do let my emotion fly fiercely at the badminton court, in which i realy know that i am consider lost control, i never did that b4. it probably mayb i really couldnt bare anymore, i was totally upset and angry. i was with the faceproblem which get abandoned. Shit, that feeling was just shit. nevermind, every1  learn from mistake, i will try to prevent such thing happen on me TWICE ^_^ so sorry to my friends or other not well known mentee which saw my lost control look, so sad :(

happy thhing was like the movies! wow, twice in the weekend, MIB on saturday and snow white on sunday. both movies are great. but the story of snow white like a bit too bored of the story line and a bit make alan and me laughing non stop...

jusco bowling is like very worst but actually how worst it is i not really know, but that is my virgin try on bowling, i dint play it b4.(Dylan who the 1 taught me how to play) HAHAHHAHA! the 1st ball i roll was like the movie, roll into the drain. i get back in short timeand i get my highest score, 67(with only 1 spare)  >< 

糖水街 also 1st in my life, it is fulled with stall, instead we dint drink dou any tong shui but we ate our dinner there. the food hahahahahaha! can make mefull zao ok liao lar, the abc is not bad, with kacang, the taste is like sweet then crunchy pula LOLLLL funny

放弃执著你就会幸福, the book that i bought from popular, i hope that i could really do as what the book title means. i really means that, i nid to be like that.....

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理性vs感性

是没有矜持还是随和？是不服还是不满？是理性还是感性?是大局优先还是约定重要？人生都很多个选择，很多时候就有如dylan所说，一些事情上面是没有对与错的。

是理性的反应？觉得目前的活动比较重要，因为要约大家出来聚一聚，把大家的冷场先破掉，这样就比较容易沟通，我非常赞成，因为我也是一个怕寂寞的人，认识很多人=对我来说，除了棒
我就想不到什么了。可是预定呢？预定不重要吗？我的预定被别人质疑，问了这里，comfirm了这里，得到了那边同意，本想会是个运动的晚上，感觉不错。两者之间，我只能的不懂到底谁错了？是聚会重要？还是承诺了重要？一群人当然比我（因为只有我一个人想去玩）重要，我个人觉得是这样啦？有时候没有说出来分享不是因为我爱说暗话，只是避免争吵，只怕到时候为了个人主意大家争吵个不停。到底是不是因为你的关系，我对你太在乎了，就算再怎么爱野蛮，也愿意放下自己，对与错已不重要了，因为我都听你的。。。。。是这样吗？这样的我，到底是感性？还是理性？

我不写英文是我觉得华语比较能抒发我感觉。。。

为舍我总是把小事看的那么重，可能一个哗啦哗啦的晚上，她根本没有记在心中，因为她觉得，我少玩那么一次根本不重要。算了。。。。 晚安 :)